I am very aware that sometimes I speak with a negative tone about my pregnancy. It’s not that I mean to, in fact most of the time I am speaking very tongue in cheek and there is much I find amusing and beautiful and completely wonderful about pregnancy (including the fact that my husband pampers me to no end,,, LOVE THAT!) I know I have spoke often about my fears of becoming a mother and for the most part I think I have so many fears because I OVER ANALYZE EVERYTHING. I am really excited to become a mother, let me say that again, I am really excited to become a mother. It’s just sometimes the fears overtake the excitement. I have been told that the fear is something every first-time mother goes through and if I were only excited and not scared there would be something very wrong with me. In fact, I have been told it is really healthy to have some fear, and if that is true then I am the healthiest human being alive!
I have decided to think past the fear and tell you the things I am most looking forward to about becoming a mother. First off, the greatest thing about this child is the gift he or she is to so many people. To make my husband a father is one of the greatest gifts I will be able to give and I am so looking forward to seeing him hold his child in his arms for the first time. He is not only the amazing man I am blessed to say is the love of my life but I know with all my heart he will make the most incredible father; he will be involved and loving and at the end of the day I know his family will always be his number one priority. To say I am thankful is a massive understatement. Also, to make our parents grandparents and our sisters aunts is a thrill in its self. Everyone is beyond excited to meet this new member of our family and I can easily say this will be the most amazing Christmas ever because wow,,, we are receiving the coolest Christmas present!
I can’t wait to see this human being develop. I am so blessed to be able to stay at home with our child and be able to see the first smile, giggle, crawl, steps, tooth, word, temper tantrum and everything in between. It’s almost overwhelming to know we have created a live being that we will always be responsible for and hopefully mold into a creative, self-respecting and kind adult. I am starting to understand how many a parent says the one thing they want most in life is for their children to be happy and healthy and contribute something to society. I am also starting to understand how a parent’s self worth can be solely set on what type of children they raise. I want our child to succeed and know they have something to offer the world no matter how large or small that is because to the one or many persons they affect while here on this earth, their existence truly mattered. I am so looking forward to seeing who and how my child will affect others.
I’m looking forward to the simple things of being a parent. Taking our child to the park, playing on the floor of the living room, laughing big belly laughs because we are making goofy faces at each other, bonding while taking a bottle, watching my child sleep peacefully, soothing him or her while they cry and so many more things I can’t possibly take the time to list. This will be my joy, happiness, sadness, fear and overwhelming love. I can’t wait to meet my child.
