I'm thinking of moving my blog because, honestly, I'm not seeing a reason to pay for my blogging service any longer when I can keep one up for free on a number of other sites. Once I scope out where I'm going to go and somehow archive all of my previous posts I'll post where I'm moving. If you definitely want to keep track of me, find me on Facebook under Jennifer Bowen Johnston and friend me and I'll list my new blog address over there. But before I go tonight, here are a few thoughts I've had today... and there will be much more to come on my new blog because I've promised myself I will become a better blogger in the hopes of recording some of our great memories for our girls. Because let's face it... I've kind of sucked in the last year. Okay, my tangent brain skipped a bit... thoughts of my day.
* I watched Glee's Madonna episode tonight for the second time this week. In many ways Madonna's music is the soundtrack of my youth. Many of my childhood memories have one of her songs running through the background and I can't tell you how many sleepovers I remember where my friends and I would be jumping on beds, singing into hairbrushes at the top of our lungs with Madonna's lyrics being the only ones coming out of our mouths. But funny enough, I never really thought about what those lyrics said at the time. Now, as a mom, I wonder what my own mother was thinking when she heard her eight year old daughter singing the words, "like a virgin, touched for the very first time!" I'm sure she was a bit mortified but in her own knowing way, realized I didn't even know what I was singing about. In all honesty, the only virgin I ever really heard about at that age was the VIrgin Mary and hey! we pray to her so the song can't really be that bad, right?! Oh, my innocent mind... sometimes I still wish it was so and I am hoping my girls have innocent minds until they are 30! I can dream.
* I also watched this week's episode of Modern Family which has become one of my favorite shows. In the episode (which was a repeat, but I didn't care) Mitchell is having a discussion with his younger step-brother, Manny, who wasn't invited to a party because his so-called friends have decided he's a bit "weird." Mitchell tells him that when he was younger other kids said the same thing about him but then spoke words that Rob and I discussed later on and said were the absolute truth in every possible way. He said, "For years and years, everyone is desperately afraid to be different in any way and then suddenly, almost overnight, everybody wants to be different." It's terrifying how so many of us are just sheep... following along with the crowd because we don't want to saunter onto the un-beaten path because we're scared to be different. I understand this well but at the same time, if there is one thing I have learned more in recent years, I hope I always am true to myself and am the most authentic self to my own being. And I truly hope I will be able to help my girls when they have problems of this nature. Just like any mother, I want my girls to be liked; for life to not be difficult, but I don't want that to come at the price of giving up who they are and I definitely don't want them to persecute others for being different. I hope they can see the beauty in difference.